chapter 1-black rose

chapter 1
THE BLACK NIGHT-FROM WHERE IT ALL STARTED

it is the day of khushi's wedding the darling duaghters of gupta's a middle class family with viren arora a rich buisnessman ...

(viren is an orphan)

khushi khushi amma was calling her name b'coz her wedding lehanga has camed from the groom's place

khushi-kya hua amma(wat happened)

amma-khushi your lehanga has comes c'mon see it...

khushi-wow amma it is awesome...

the wedding night...

amma-khushi tumhari mehendi kitni dark rachi hai... viren will love u very much

(not love he will hate her very much)

the groom has arrived with his friends and some relatives...

garima khushi's mother welcomed him by doing his aarti and putting tikka on his forehaed

then they all reached to stage after ten or 15 minutes khushi was coming down from the staires...

viren helped her to came on the stage...

they exchanged there varmala's(garlands)

then the pandit called them to mandap and started the mantra's and they took there saat pheres by taking seven promises

Groom:
Together we will protect our house and children.
Bride:
I will be by your side as your courage and strength. I will rejoice in your happiness. In return, you will love me solely.

Groom:
May we grow wealthy and prosperous and strive for the education of our children. May our children live long.
Bride: 
I will love you solely for the rest of my life, as you are my husband. Every other man in my life will be secondary. I vow to remain chaste.

Groom:
You have brought sacredness into my life, and have completed me. May we be blessed with noble and obedient children.
Bride:
I will shower you with joy, from head to toe. I will strive to please you in every way I can.

Groom: You are my best friend, and staunchest well-wisher. You have come into my life, enriching it. God bless you.
Bride: 
I promise to love and cherish you for as long as I live. Your happiness is my happiness, and your sorrow is my sorrow. I will trust and honor you, and will strive to fulfill all your wishes.

Groom:
May you be filled with joy and peace.
Bride:
I will always be by your side.

Groom:
We are now husband and wife, and are one. You are mine and I am yours for eternity.
Bride:
As God is witness, I am now your wife. We will love, honor and cherish each other forever

(but will one of them be fulfilled?????)

(the answer is no)

The time of vidaai has arrived gupta's were biding good bye to their darling only daughter khushi''..then khushi left for the airport with his husband viren''

From where they will go to delhi by viren's private jet''.

they both were sitting in the private jet ...

in less then two hours they reached delhi and after 1 hour they reached viren's home and khushi was very happy to see her new house

then viren and khushi entered there house...

khushi kicked the rice pot from her foot and entered then viren asked

viren-khushi do you like the house...

khushi-yes virenji it is beautiful...

viren-thanxxx biwi...

chalo let's go to our room...

the room wwas decorated with flowers...

khushi-you done all this for us

viren-yes biwi...

viren-u sit here i am going to freshanup...

after 2 or 3 minuts viren came out of the washroom and moved towards khushi...

hugged her from behind...

viren-u know biwi u r looking awesome... today...

viren-tumhara koi boyfriend tha khushi

khush- ji nahi...

viren- that's good

then he took her too the bed... made her lie on the bed and moved towards her neck and started kissing her neck... 

khushi was feeling uncomfortable...

she got up 

viren-wat happened

khushi-i am not feeling comfortable ...

viren-why...

khushi-abhi abhi toh shadi hui hai aur hum apko abhi toh thik se jante bhi nahi hai..

viren-wat... toh u mean tum kuch nahi karogi hann

khushi-yes...

viren-how dare u (he got angry... stands up from the bed and pulls khushi towards him...)

tum biwi ho meri...

khushi-app itna gussa kyun hooo rahe hai...

viren pulling her hair-tum biwi ho meri mai jad chahun jahan chahon tumhara=e sath kuch bhi kar skta hooo samjhi...

khushi was in pain...

he pinned her against the wall and kissed her wildly making her lower lip bleeb then he pushed her and she falls on the ground...

he goes to her pulled her dupata and throw it ...

the he pulled her necklace making marks on her neck very harshly...

then he kissed licked bit her neck very harshly making her scream...

aaahhh...

then he takes of her blouse unclasped her bra and throw it then he liked and bit her nipples again making her scream in pain leaving marks on her breasts...

then he ripped her choli

then pushed her on the bed and entered her

thrusting in and out as fast as h e can making her cry in pain

then his pace slows down and he says

viren-in future u will ever say no to me for anything'.

Khushi silent

Speak up damit''.

Then he again fastened his pace and asked her again the same question''

Khushi(in a very low voice)-no''..

Then he fu88ed her hard very hard making her cry

She was bleeding but he was not bothered'''.

He continued to f**k her till he slept'..

Leaving a pale and crying khushi besides him

She was all alone she cannot run as he was sleeping holding her very tight'''.

She cannot move b'coz of the pain in her lower regions due to pain and th e feeling of betrayal she slept''''

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ARNAV'S DAIRY

THE EACH AND EVERY POEM DISCRIBES THE CHARACTER OF ARNAV ONLY ARNAV...

AGAIN I AM SEEING ALL THE POEMS BELONG TO THIER AUTHORS NOT TO ME

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When the darkness comes
I must wait it out alone
For the road that I've chosen
Is one that no one will follow

It is a darkness filled with silence
Unbroken for what seems like eternity
It is a night that never breaks
Awaiting a dawn that may never come

I have no strength for this road
And the ones that I depend on dare not follow
Any screams I shall make
Will be swallowed up and heard by no one
For the darkness is truly vast

Here all joy is sucked out
And replaced with grief
Companionship is removed
And the world is filled with loneliness

Yet I must be strong
Finding life and light
Beyond myself and this world
I must find the One who can be with me
And I can depend on for all things

Hes strength shall become my own
And through Hes power
We shall overcome

by-michaeldavidjay

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in the dark I stand alone
In the dark I think this is my home

I think of you in the dark
I think of our possible love in the dark

I believe in you to lead me to the dark light
So here I am in the dark as I await

In the dark I stand alone

For every tear I shed, you take a piece of light
With every piece of light you own my soul

I love this, but will you ever return my love

In the dark I stand alone

Even the hurt can not keep me away
I still fight to be in you veins

In the dark I stand alone
In the dark I think of you as home 

by-DEEP DARK SOUL POET

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Its dark in this town,
Its dark in my house,
Its dark in my soul,
Its dark in my mind,
Its dark everywhere,
Its dark in my life. 

by-bryer rose

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The guy In The Dark
Has a Dark face without a name
And a Dark smile to hide the pain
The guy In the Dark
Doesn't know how much longer he can keep trying
Everyday he's slowly dying
The guy in the Dark
Sits all alone
But wants a place to truly call home
The guy in the Dark
Wants nothing more than to be free
….I know this because
……..that guy is me 

by-DEEP DARK SOUL POET

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I'm a shadow in the dark
The quintessential sound of death
I'm a shadow in the dark
Like the reaper's icy breath

I'm a statue set in stone
In apathetic sleep
Let the world just pass me by
And I will never weep

I'm a shadow in the dark
The quintessential sound of death
I'm a shadow in the dark
Like the reaper's icy breath

You don't have to set me free
You don't have to light my night
You don't have to feel my breath
Or step into my line of sight
For I'm a shadow in the dark
You know I'm there but you can't see
I'm a shadow in the dark
You pass me by, and leave me be. 

by-Justin Robert Cooper

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I have a big dark secret, stored deep inside of me
should i tell? should i not? what should it be?
for every day that comes, this big dark secret grows
and the fear that i live in takes ahold
it will not go, this big dark secret
it must be told, this big dark secret
so why have i waited for so long?
life will never get better if i just play along
because this big dark secret destroys my life
and it must be told, no matter what the price 

by-kat temple

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The light is getting dark
the clouds are turning gray
but i'll be ok

The day turns to night
and it's not going to change
So i'll walk through the streets
to see myself in a different light

The dark catches up and i'm covered
with death and dark
the dark is my new best friend
Through the dark i can control death

Through my death i can see my life
the life that was, is and could have been
with my new found friend comes
the choice of life or death

The dark is good it's new
the light was bad it's old
through the dark new choices arrive
with the light nothing was to choose

The dark is getting darker
but is that good or bad
cause it means death is for sure
I want the light back
I want to see myself not a stranger 

by-jess jayne

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in this ff arnav character is less darker than khushi

GUYZZ THIS IS NOT ACTUALLY THE FIRST UPDATE BUT TO TELL U THE CONDITIN OF KHUSHI IN THIS I HAVE DECIDED TO GIVE U SOME POEMS (I DO NOT OWN ANY POEM IT BELONGS TO ITS AUTHOR I FOUND THEM PERFECT SO I TAKEN THEM PLSSS DONT BASH ME)(IT CONTAINS SOME AKWARD WORDS PLSS FORGIVE ME FOR THAT)

KHUSHI'S DAIRY

Wedding Night

My wedding night,
What a fright.
All he wanted to do was fight.

"I'm not in love with you," he said.
Last thing I want to do
Is take you to bed.

"I'd divorce you now
But it's too soon.
I'll just keep you around
And make you swoon.

"I'll pull out your fingernails
And chop off your big toe.
No one will ever know.
And if you say otherwise
I'll tell everyone
You're full of lies.

"They'll believe me
For it's plain to see
That you're the crazy
Here, not me.

"Still I'm stuck.
My fault for being a sitting duck
For a witch like you
Whose evil charms
Lured me into her smelly arms.

"In this marriage I'll never stay.
I'll wait a year or two
That's what I'll do.

"No, I'll need more time than that.
First you'll have some brats.
Then after that
I'll slowly grind you to the ground
Until one day you're no longer around.

"I'll keep the all the money for me
And take away your keys.
Then lock you in the house
Where you'll creep like a mouse
Scared to death of me.

"Yes, yes that's how it'll be.
How clever of me!

"I feel better now
Because I have something to look forward to
... Torturing you.
Hah! Maybe I should start right now.
How about I set fire to your hair?
That pretty hair that makes men stare.

"You s**t! You strumpet!
I'm not your puppet.
I'm your master.
You're my slave.
And you'll rue the day
You seduced me with your lies.

"I'm going to bed now.
But I need a drink or
I won't sleep a wink
Wondering what you'll do
While I'm asleep.
Will you kill me
Or will you just go insane?

"How about a headline like this:
'Bride loses mind.
Commits suicide
On wedding night.'

"Think about it.
It might be better than me
Murdering you, which, of course,
I'd never do.

"So goodnight, my sweet.
I'm going to sleep.
I better not hear a peep
Out of you.
If you wake me up
No telling what I'll do.
Maybe I'll cut
Your c*** in two.
Ha! Ha! Ha!"

I ran into the bathroom
And locked the door
And spent the night
On the cold bathroom floor.

The next morning
He apologized so tenderly
I almost believed
He hadn't meant
What he had said to me.

It was the stress of the wedding
Said he,
"You ruined my wedding day.
So I had to make you pay.
But darling dear
Be of good cheer
I didn't mean those things
I said last night.

"Come on, honey bunny,
Open the door.
Come on, you can't be
That scared of me."

I didn't know what to do.
If I opened the door
Who knew what gore
He had in store.
But neither could I stay in a bathroom
Forevermore.

Yet when I tried to move towards the door
My feet felt glued to the floor.
So sure was I
That I was going to die
I prayed to God to forgive my sins
For this battle with this man
I could never win.

Then he threatened to kick in the door
And bash my head against the toilet bowl.

Maybe if I opened the door and
Smiled at him for a while
When he turned his back
I could grab my purse and flee.

"Don't try to get away," he said with glee.
"I locked everything in your suitcase
And I have the key.
Now sit down and talk with me."

I sat, but my mouth couldn't move.
So it was he who talked for a long time
About how our marriage would be so divine
And he promised repeatedly
To never again be mean to me.

I didn't believe him.
But where could I go?
I was only eighteen years old.
I had no money.
I had no car.
And without any clothes
I couldn't go far.

The next few weeks
He wooed me with wine and song.
I took heart
Maybe nothing was really wrong.
Maybe the wedding night
Was just an apparition.

Little did I know
It would become an almost permanent condition.

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Broken

Each day I'd cry
I wanted to die
Broken

For me it was plain
I couldn't live with the shame
Broken

How you did gloat
With your hands round my throat
Broken

And with a twist
You put the knife to my wrist
Broken

Forced in bed
f**k up and take it you said
Broken

My HEART filled with fear
With that drunken leer
Broken

YOU ALWAYS LEFT ME bruised
Frightened and confused
Broken

My mind started to fester
When you had sex with A PROSTITUTE IN FRONT OF ME
Broken

In the wounds you rubbed salt
You said it was my fault
Broken

I had rejected
Blaming me you had perfected
Broken

So much pain
Never to be the same
Just broken

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Because I can

To my Husband

Why did you hurt me?

When you promised to love me!

What did I do to deserve the pain you gave me?

You promised to honor and cherish me!

Every punch, kick was like a stone shattering glass

Chips of my love for you, falling away with every strike!

You said you did it "because you could"

Why didn't we have a normal relationship?

Rather than you controlling me all the time

I gave you my all, my everything

In return you would slap, punch, kick, rape or threaten to kill me!

Why? I asked you?

You said "Because you Could"

You would say "It was all my fault"

I annoyed you therefore I should take the consequences

Why did you do that

"Because you could"

You held a knife to my throat and laugh

Why? Because you could

You would rape and bugger me

Why? Because you could

You would call me a wh**e, bitch, liar and fat

This isn't love!

Why did I stay so long?

Because you controlled my every move

I fled from you in fear of you,

I thought I couldn't cope without you

I was so wrong but to start with

I had no home, no where to go, no money, no clothes, nothing

All I had was 5 cigarettes and the clothes on my back

I was scared of you and didn't know what to do

I THINK OF A BETTER LIFE

A better life, a life without fear or intimidation

No more walking on egg shells

Or awaiting the next beating or rape

BUT U TILL NOW

you left me with scars ' emotional and physical

MY LIFE IS IN UR HANDS AND I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO SAVE MY LIFE

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he tells me not to look that way
he tells me not to dress that way
he tells me not to talk that way
he tells me not to act that way

he smacks me
he tells me I better shut up or else
he tells me I am worthless
he tells me my no's are meaningless
he doesn't care that I don't want to or that I am crying

he tells me he loves me
he tells me I am his and I will always be, that he owns me
he tells me no one will ever love me like he does

he tells me I am stupid
he tells me I am a hoe
he tells me he will kill me

he sucks the life out of me

I finally had enough
I could not continue to live this way
I realized these were all lies
I decided this behavior was unacceptable
I finally got out

I was young
I didn't know any better
I kept it to myself
I was ashamed
I lived in fear

I refuse to be controlled
I refuse be abused
I refuse to end up dead

I deserve to be safe
I deserve respect
I deserve to be loved
I deserve to be happy
I deserve to be free to be me
I deserve to be treated well

I am worth it! but only in my eyes for him i am a dool with whom he can do everything

IN THIS FF KHUSHI IS VERY DARK AND DESTROYED

BLACK ROSE

('black roses'  symbolize the death of an idea or say farewell they can send a positive message of rebirth and new beginnings.)

BLACK ROSE

a BLACK rose growing from a dark
concrete crevice of
this deserted building
on a BLACK night
spreading its BLACK petals
for BLACK dreams


on a fine morning
when darkness
is gone
the BLACKrose
comes out in the open
to meet the sun
embracing it
with so much light
turning into something
sort of a BLACKISH
colored rose
something like
glowing

but still BLACK
like the one last night. 

BY-RIC S. BASTASA

A STORY OF LIFE OF TWO PERSONS WHO FACED AN BITTER PAST , PRESENT AND MIGHT SEE VERY BITTER FUTURE ALSO...

THIS JOURNEY WILL TAKE THEM TO EVERY LIMIT THAT THEY WILL CROSS...

A DARK NIGHT A DARK DAY A DARK EVENING EVERYTHING WAS IN KHUHSI'S LIVE SHE WAS ONLY A PROSTITUTE FOR HER HUSBAND FOR PLEASING HIM ALL DAY AND NIGHT EVERYWHERE HE WANTS SHE IS ONLY LIKE AN BOSY WITHOUT ANY SOUL BUT WILL THE ENTRY OF ARNAV CAN MAKE HER LIFE LIKE A RED ROSE AND THEN LIKE A WHITE ROSE...

BUT ARNAV WHO WAS NOT LESS THEN HIS HUSBAND RISHI WILL MAKE HER NOT HAPPY BUT GIVE HER MORE PAIN...

ARNAV LOST HIS PARENTS 18 YEARS BACK THEN WHAT HAPPNED WITH HIM HOW HE BECAME AN ANIMAL FROM AN HUMAN WILL KHUHSI BE ABLE TO MAKE HIM A HUMAN AGAIN...

ALL QUESTINS CAN ONLY BE ANSWERED BY GOS BUT WILL GOD HAS HAS ANOTHERS PLAN IN HIS MIND ... 

HE WILL MAKE DESTINY TO BRING THEM TOGHETHER BUT HOW, WHEN, WHERE? ONLY GOD CAN ANSWER...

{THIS FF IS GOING TO BE VERY MATURE AND EXTREMELY DARK AS BOTH CHARCTERS ARNAV AND KHUSHI ARE VERY VERY DARK (VERY VERY DARK + VERY VERY DARK = EXTREMELY DARK)ONLY I CAN PROMISE U THAT IT WILL NEVER DISSAPOINT U MY COMMITMENT}

~~~IF U WANT ME TO CONTINUE PLSS WITH UR COMMENT WRITE AND BLACK ROSE INRED=FOR YES OR IN PINK=FOR NO~~~~

YOUR COMMENT REALY REALY MEANS ALOT AND THIS STORY IS VERY NEAR MY HEART... SOO PLSS GIVE UR REVIES...

khushi

Dark girl so filled with strife
Dark Dark girl she'll take your life
Dark girl stay for a while
Dark Dark girl she makes me smile
Dark girl she shows no fear
Dark Dark girl is always near
Dark girl wont see her cry
Dark Dark girl just wants to die

But Dark girl lives in the dark
so you dont see her painfull mark

Dark Dark girl may never know
just how much the light can show 

kyle potter

ARNAV

The dark is my friend
the dark is my home.
For the dark dosent hurt me
as some people can
The dark is my comfert
the dark is where i hide
the dark is my heart
for this is how its come
the dark was coused by them
the ones who hurt me
for this is what i see the dark and suffering. 

Grace DeVon miller